Sunday, June 19, 2011

Happy father's day

hari bapa...yeah but no father around us to be entertained or celebrated as the father of d house in now at jakarta enjoying his golfing

wishing him a very happy father's day..it takes a special man like u to b the great ayah n hubby,a man who puts his family first...

walaupun kekadang u did something yg mencabar hati perasaan kesabaran dan ketabahan aku sebagai isteri; but u alwaz special to us in ur own way

early morning sent the two to Seminar Motivasi at Seri Negeri, n the speakers shall be Sheikh Muzafar n Dr Tuah but after registered nafis refused to attend;naik hangin satu badan apa lagi already paid rm 120 per person;anyway will try to get d refund from DMDI later

spending this day at home, will b back to INTAN after magrib to continue d course


Saturday, June 18, 2011

A Course,n my angry

actually i sekarang sedang undergo a two weeks course d INTAN Kluang which started from 16 to 30 June, 2011.this course means for pengesahan jawatan n a compulsary course for those yg menjawat jawatan awam..

its quite tough n the schedule is tight..there will be an exam n assignments.wish me luck becoz if i passd course n exam, instead of the confirmation i akan dpt withdraw my epf hahaha..

selepas meninggalkan rumah berhari2..yg suku tongkang pecah so there was a lot of things yg i kena buat hari ini..alhamdulliah managed to do n complete semua kerja rumah termasuklah menyiapkan pakaian sekolah anak2 dan juga sempat bershopping di JJ-weekend kids' entertainment..

hubby?????he is away to jakarta attending a golf tournament..i memang tengah hot n temper tahap gaban dengan dia kerana i only knew about the trip few minutes before he flies..so kalau i naik hantu patut ke tak patut..

Monday, June 13, 2011

hectic day

em on leave today to settle few outstanding personal things..so did hubby.

starts with d little princess school registration for standard one; then only we went for breakfast at bukit baru;;yummilicious roti canaai with kari kambing..

then headed to melaka raya, to settle phone registration at celcom..once done we went to market..

reached home @ about 1.30 pm from 9 am...bersihkan lauk pauk, cooked lunch, blend chilies.lepas lunch we went out to JJ at 4.30 pm with hubby to get me a new handbag;yelah da bertahun x ganti handbag.. this week kena ganti baru especially sebab nak g kursus haha
balik rumah lipat kain dekat 3 bakul..
lepas settlekan kain baju.. go down to d kitchen, masak hati goreng kicap for dinner...n told them whoever wish for dinner makan sendiri..most of them kenyang da makan bns yg i beli kat La Boheme JJ tadi

feel tired like hell...now relaxing on my bed..

outside, hubby currently sedang sesi tazkirah with d kids...tu mesti ada yang da buat hal lah..

wat a hectic day...

jb's trip-jun 2011-last part

yesterday after check out we attended the wedding reception at Dewan Bandar Baru Uda

before check out was another round of swimming for the kids..

sedap n lazat makan lauk pengantin ;ada yg special that is lauk kaki kambing masak merah kott..hubby n his brader really enjoyed that n siap korek n ketuk d kaki to get n taste d sumsum..

hubby forced me to try a bit but i cant take it, lain mcm rasa

on d way back singgah ayer hitam, as my MIL nak beli batang keladi n i beli sedikit keropok2..

sent my parents in law to their kampung, singgah di KFC Sg Udang as kakak da berhari2 sibuk sangat nak makan d zinger birgers- sampai rumah dlm 7.30 mlm.kemas2 basuh baju baring2 terlelap sampaai pagi..lovely hubby da tolong sidaikan kain...

jb's trip-jun 2011-second part














on saturday, after swimming we went out for dinner at Stulang Laut.We chosed "Restaurant Sayam" not bad but really cant compare to Melaka's seafood..

then we went to The Zon..

ronda2 there for about half n hour...as we have promised d kids to go for karaoke earlier, suddenly while ronda2 we found out ada Music Box di The Zon so layanzzz mereka di sana for an hour.

next agenda-fun fair at Danga Bay...mahal bonau tokennya so we have limit the number of rides for them...

da penat melepas tension di karaoke n berfunfair, we went to Restoran Singgah Selalu for light meals..on d way little princess da tido, penat sakan d whole day so x der peluang i nak menjamu selera.. only hubby n nafis yg minum ...

after all we reached the hotel at 12.30 am...

Saturday, June 11, 2011

jb's trip-jun 2011-first part


we safely reached jb at about 4 pm n check in here

before that we transited at mySIL's house at Tmn U Skudai to drop my parents in law.
Actually we r here in JB to attend Yun's wedding's reception tomorrow at Bandar Baru uda..tetapi since we do not bring d kids any where during this school holiday so this trip consider as our family's trip too!

and d first thing we do after check in is ....swimming session, apa lagi








while d kids are enjoying their time that is wat d father doin

n this wat d boring girl do....

Wednesday, June 8, 2011

work station





di sinilah tempatku menabur keringat;
di sinilah tempatku mencurah bakti;
di sinilah tempatku menanggung perasaan;
di sinilah tempatku menenangkan fikiran;
di sinilah tempatku memerah usaha;
di sinilah segalanya
di mana rezeki ku bertitik...




nota;di sini juga salah satu tempat aku berinternet .........

1st activity- june school's holiday

selepas berpenat lelah pada hari sabtu yg lepas di hari wedding uyun, we went back to MIL's house n planned to go for swimming at pengkalan balak..

it was d first activity for d kids for this school term holiday...

little princess said that she did not want to swim;but she loved to build the sand castle-itu statement before nampak air laut le..

ending up; dia pun x tahan tengok abang n nashwa berenang2

after swimming...

refused to change the wet suit!

viewing these photos make me so eager to get d better camera!!!!

Tuesday, June 7, 2011

damn sleeepppyyy

most of the staffs are on leave..so its bit boring
em in my room ni feels damn sleepy
wish i have a bed..so i can lie down n rest my body hahaha (too much)
as my room is jenis "a can see thru one" so hajat nak tido on d sofa is not a good idea at all..
nak buat kerja pun rasa not so energetic sebab kepala hotak da fikir nak bercuti je............
so layan browsing internet n sempat buat entry lagi





my wish...percutian berdua



i alwaz dream to go for a holiday berdua sahaja dengan my hubby..ala2 honeymoon kot..
in actual fact, after 17 years marriage baru sekali kami pergi bercuti berdua..kira2 12 tahun yg lepas, itupun bukan dianggap bercuti bersama yang sebenar kerana waktu tu i menemani hubby outstation ke Kuching..

masa itu anak dua...n kami tinggalkan mereka di kampung MIL;sampai je bilik hotel n check in, hubby da menyebut.."sunyi pulak takde budak2"...
from that moment, every where we go, we will bring along the kids- x pernah sekali pun kami tinggalkan mereka.

n i lately rasa nak bercuti berdua sahaja..halangan yg besar adalah my little princess yg memang payah nak berenggang dgn i..even di rumah, kalau dia tak nampak kelibat i walaupun mase tu i tgh buat private bisness ke, tetap dicari dan pastikan i menyahut bila dia panggil, kalau x mulalah dengar dia nangis..

i feel that we need to spend time together, in more privacy way...masa utk anak2 kena dicuri sedikit bagi membolehkan kami menikmati masa2 kami pulak..sesekali kami perlu jugak berbuat begitu....

dalam keadaan sekarang maybe by spending time together life can be more meaningful, cheerful..

Monday, June 6, 2011

facts of life



lara hati



lara hati
sayu dan sendu
tanpa suara
berkocak dalam jiwa
pedih pilu
dalam kotak hati
meronta-ronta
di rantai penuh syahdu
emosi
resah
hadapi jua
ketabahan peneman segalanya....

Sunday, June 5, 2011

Flower girl on Yun's big day

semlm adalah hari perkahwinan anak saudara hubby yun yg jatuhnya pada tarikh ulangtahun kami yg ke 17..

my little princess nazwa telah menjadi flower girl pada hari itu, together with her two nieces damia n hana..keseronokannya telah bermula sejak berbulan2 yg lalu hingga saat aku belikan dia d dress aka gown, barulah aku tidak diganggu dengan soalan yg sama setiap hari pasal baju yg perlu dipakai for d day..

she recall that i told her once that d wedding will be in june, so every week without fail she will ask me n ask me whether the june is already coming or not..

betapa leganya when day comes, no more q&a...
for Yun n Epul selamat pengantin baru dari mak usu sekeluarga, semuga dipanjang jodoh dan bahagia menempuh alam perkahwinan,erm nampaknya every year we will celebrate our anivessary together gether hehe...

some of d photos on the day....

the over excited flower girl

happy annivesary yg ke 17




yesterday was our 17th wedding annivesary; its not that i forgot to post entry on this but i really busy with hubby's niece wedding, which also falled on our big day...tu yg baru nak post d entry pasal our big day

d funny thing was that, we shared the bride n groom's wedding cake; sebab x sempat nak beli..

anyway...come back to our story..flashback to 21 years ago.. i ve been friend with hubby secara kebetulan je n it had begun with one phone call..actually his bro is my abang angkat best fren at the uni...one day i called his house number n wanted to talk to his bro- to convey a message to my abang angkat but he was d one who picked up the call..was told that his bro just left d house & went back to uni..n we talked for few minutes; suddenly from there, our relationship as a fren has started;

we dont really into couple until about a year later..before that i ada introduced him to one of my good fren with an intention to arrange a special relationship between them,until one day, we went out together with my fren n his fren, to meet them up for a first date..on that day,tetiba i felt something wrong with my feelings when i saw them walked, talked n sit together (masa tu jadi escort)hati sayu je...kononlah

went home..he called me and asked me is that wat i want..matched him with my fren; he said that he cant accept my fren ..he wanted me & a special relationship with me not with my fren..hahaha

sebab i yg menjadi tukang match so i rasa x baiklah kan buat my fren terkeciwa so i asked my fren whether she actually likes him or not..my fren said that she did that coz i wanted her to do so but told me that she has no feeling pada dia..so to make this story short (hehe) lama-kelamaan i accepted him once em sure of my feelings that i did like him too and falls in love with him..

if em not mistaken we became close sekitar penghujung tahun 1988..when he was in his first year at UTM; still remember that we used to break up for about 7 months due to salah faham..end 1989 i pulak further studied @UITM n somewhere in february 1990; i saje gatal called his house number, still remembered that waktu tu his niece pick up d phone and when i asked her whether i can talk to him, she asked me "are u xxx"..berdetap hati i coz i did not know that he has someone else..

dengan rasa keciwa, i wrote him a letter n asked him the actual story..who was that xxx...received a reply from him, told me everything..we met up a month later n continue our relationship;until he graduated n when i was in third year, kami bertunang pd 17th march 1993.

after known each other for about 6 years and two months after my graduation; we were got married on 4th june 1994..

we were gifted with four kids..three girls and a boy...bermacam cerita suka duka menemani ikatan perkahwinan yg kami bina selama ini...penuh suka duka...penuh ranjau...dan itulah asam garam kehidupan suami isteri..mendekatkan hubungan kami..menyemarakkan kasih sayang...walaupun ada perselisihan, pertelagahan namun semuanya adalah dugaan kepada kekukuhan rumahtangga dan ujian kesabaran antara kami...

he is special; special in many ways even though ada kekurangannya...no one is perfect..neither him or me .. em not d best person maybe for him but i always do d best for him..even though dgn kekurangan yg ada pada i tetapi no one can dispute or challenge kesetiaan dan kasih syg i pada dia..he is also a caring dad to d kids..he loves his kids soooo much n i know that,he alwaz want to do d best n give d best to his kids..itu yg penting, kerana my kids takkan putus menikmati kasih sayang dan sentiasa mendapat perhatian dari dia..thats wat i alwaz pray for!!

thanks dear ; we have been together for 17 years..share everything the sadness n happiness, the sweetness n bitterness-harta benda bukan segalanya (walaupun perlu ada) yg penting kasih sayang akan berkekalan, sentiasa bersemarak, kejujuran menjadi landasan perhubungan dan kesetiaan yang dipertahankan..

alwaz luv u from d bottom of my heart, muga jodoh dan kash syg antara kita kekal hingga ke akhir hayat..

Thursday, June 2, 2011

"mid weekday n weekend hubby"

suddenly i terkenangkan my hubby..

since i worked in melaka, we live separately-me n kids here while he is staying in our old house in bandar baru nilai...

but we have make an arrangement that he will be back here twice a week, normally on wednesday and friday after work..kiranya my hubby jadi mid weekday n weekend husband..(?????!!!)

now, after we have sold our house my hubby has rented a room to stay for the days yg dia x balik melaka..
feels pity on him when he says that his life is sort of tak teratur..x pernah since married he live in such a way-hidup bujang..makan di kedai, baju di kedai dobi..(once in a while he will bring back his clothes for me to wash n iron)

we have been married for 17 years..this coming 4th june will be our 17th wedding annivesary.demi anak2 n for a better and harmony life, this is our life journey which we had chosen..i really hope this will not be permanent as he already applied for the KUP's post and will try his best to get a transfer to melaka or somewhere nearby when the application get through..

sometime i find our life quite hard without him around especially to manage our four kids..i always lost control of my emotion n if there was something on, he always willing to be around untuk tolong settlekan..sometimes he talked a lot with the kids, scolding them, mumbling etc..
but he alwaz be a great hubby n responsible father...

Wednesday, June 1, 2011

my 1st year at pknm

suddenly remember of my first year working at pknm..
how i wish to be employed by govt or state govt last time..n rezeki Allah, i was offered to join pknm a year ago...

before that i worked with a subsidiary of a public listed company, a well known housing developer in n9 for almost 13 years, but i dont get much benefit there..people will ask, how come u can be there for so long even u r not happy...frankly speaking i dont really think about myself, i sacrifice my feeling n happiness n joy..d office was near my house n convenient for me to fetch my kids from school n monitor them..that were some of d reasons y i still stay..

i felt so much on discrimination..in terms of appreciation, bonus, increment-i know i contribute a lot but the management did not recognised that.. i cant hold that anymore; y i should stay..

n later i was told by my BIL that there is a vacancy @pknm, y dont i try my luck...

finally i was employed, thanks God, i came back to my home town...even though i temporarily have to leave hubby n survive my life with all d kids here...i guess i made a right decision..

well i love working here, more privacy, more powerful (hahaha, compared to last time) new environment new things...

wish me all d best n good luck here, hope this is my last stop..

wat a burden???



kekadang i do not understand y some people are having sort of last minute habit to complete their job or task or assignment; watever they name it..when they cant finish that, then they will find their victim to complete it...

it happened to me when i was instructed to finish the paper work which em not so familiar with the head n tail of the paper...n d worst part is that paper work needs to be presented during our Board Meeting next week..

the needs to complete the paper work came within this person knowledge since last month, however until todate, it is not ready..

in this scenario, if u r in my shoe, u will definetely feel stress, i tell u..especially when u r lack of facts n knowledge of the subject matter;

tetapi oleh kerana such person gradenya lebih tinggi daripada u, n much more senior than u, would u say no????

fine, wat i do is that i just help this person and did it as much as i can BUT i left it uncomplete, for the part or area yg i x sure, pass back to this person to finalise...at least my efforts were there, also people can appreciate my co-operation..end product is not on me,thats for sure

its ur responsibilty, finish it and answer for it...................