addressing the luv..........

kasih sayang itu sesuatu yang subjektif...bagaimana menunjukkan kasih sayang itu pula variety...
seperti kasih sayang ibu kepada anak2..dari segi agihan sama rata tapi kekadang tak jugak..ibu itu juga seorang manusia, hamba Allah yang tak syumul..ade kekurangan dan kelebihan..walaupun tugasnya sama iatu melahirkan anak-anak tetapi kerana adenya kekurangan itu, menjadikan seseorang ibu itu tidak dapat berlaku adil dalam memberikan kasih sayang kepada anak-anak..it could happen to any of us, sebagai ibu..

for me, seorang ibu yang really could be fair in distributing her loves to anak-anak is a mum who deserve a so-called penghormatan coz in this real world, not many can do tat..but difficult to justify this kind of mum

talking about me as a mum,like others; i will alwaz try to be fair to my kids in everything..tapi atas kekurangan yang ader dlm diri, kekadang i tersasar melebihkan something to ...frankly speaking,it alwaz be my eldest..even tho i ni garang & not tat type yang pandai menunjukkan kasih sayang tetapi in any event she still my priority than the rest.

yup maybe kerana pengalaman melahirkan dia amat menggerikan...i mengalami kes placenta retained after delivery..i remembered tat after gave birth for half an hour the placenta masih tidak boleh dikeluarkan and the doc decided to biuskan i sepenuhnya untuk mereka mengorek2 uri yang masih dalam perut..dan i hanya sedar 5 jam selepas itu dan during tat time i was told by my SIL yang menjadi midwife semasa i bersalin tat the doc telah menyeluk sampai lengan menyebabkan i merana dan menerima kesan jahitan "di situ" for almost one month..membuatkan i buang air besar sambil berdiri dan tak boleh meneran utk buang besar seama lebih sebulan..i did suffer tooo much..

we alwaz argue n dispute on a lot of things..she is a stubborn girl but in my deep heart i know n understand wat actually she needs from me; but i am not tat kind of person who like to expose or directly show my luv..i did it in my own way..in any event i cant deny tat she get things more than her siblings...most of it indirectly...

that is y she doesnt notice n keep argue tat i lebihkan adik2...no no no;

i have a big dream to see her success in her study...so far her achievement in study adalah moderate..she used to be/known as a smart girl while she was in std 1-4..tapi mula menurun sedikit demi sedikit sampai PMR; its not tat i do not monitor her but she's getting lazy and playful..which others cant help.

i wanted her to be a role model to her siblings-she stil has the time n opportunity to change her attitude n reset her mind n focus to her study for SPM;

i studied law n was graduated from U; whereas my hubby graduated in engineering, also from U..of course with wat we had,  we wanted  the same for our kids..as she is our first kid..of course i want her to success in study n make us proud of her.

the same dream n hope like wat other parents had..which is not wrong

i want her to read this n understand..

change..with ur sincerity..truly from ur heart

remember tat, luv is always in my heart...scolding n mumbling are something normal for a mum to act

apa pun kebaikan dan sesuatu yang positif shall be ur belonging, ...which is for your own sake n benefit..

we had our own n we wouldnt loose anything regardless u r success or not; u r the one who will suffer if you fail n it will be late to regret once u failed...